The Pregnant Pause:Our TTC Journey

Today marks 11 weeks for this little one! My morning sickness has lightened up but the fatigue has definitely increased. I've been asleep by 8:40PM two out of the last three nights. So much for being hoppin' 20-something year olds. We've heard our baby's heartbeat again and it's steady in the 176 range. That sound never gets old, let me tell you. The bump is definitely getting hard to hide and to be honest, I haven't been hiding it at all. The only days I tend to hide it are when I have big meetings with higher ups and all of our market. Ironically, I had one of those Tuesday and I have two of those this week. *eye roll*  Those days I wear more loose clothes. Here's a picture of me yesterday at 10w6d. It's just hard to muster up the energy to take pictures on a Monday, let alone any other day right now. 😏 I had my first OB appointment this past Wednesday. Everything went well! I did just find out today that I have a UTI but that should get solved ...

EDIT: Was supposed to post awhile back. Oh well, it's an exciting post so you just get it late! We are now 9.5 weeks pregnant with our second! Let me tell you... When 9 weeks hit, it hit HARD. I was already battling some pretty intense morning sickness and fatigue. A couple days before I turned 9 weeks, the nausea started getting pretty worse. Then, the headaches came on. I've had a headache for four days straight now. Not to mention, the fatigue is ridiculous. I'm ready to fall asleep by 7:00PM and have a hard time making it through work without falling asleep now. This pregnancy is just so different than my son's. I never really had a lot of nausea with Reilly. I definitely had migraines almost daily. That was really it though. This week marked an exciting milestone for us! We used our at-home doppler on Tuesday and after only five minutes of searching we found the heartbeat! It was beating a glorious 184bpm! After suffering through two losses last year, this wa...

I feel this might be early to be having a meltdown over food but I figured I should share in case anyone finds this funny. As I've mentioned, I'm struggling with pretty intense morning sickness. I'm extremely nauseous a majority of the day (even on medication) and food isn't something I'm crazy about right now. So, last night my husband said he wanted to just order in pizza. Well, for some reason even though I normally LOVE pizza, it just hasn't sounded good the last week. I told him I'd rather have a meatball sub from Casey's or something. Well, of course, subs didn't sound good to Devan but being the wonderful husband he is he went for subs anyway. He decided to hit up Subway because he doesn't like the experience of getting subs at Casey's. So, he drove 10 minutes further down the road to Subway. When he walks in and starts ordering my sub the employee regretfully informed him that they were out of meatballs. I'm sure Devan's heart...

Yesterday, I was getting ready for a big day at work. My boss's boss was coming in to do some coaching and observations on us so I had a lot on my mind. That was lucky because it kept the nerves and anxiety from really kicking in until about an hour before my appointment. I had woken up extremely nauseous that morning so I was expecting good things but you can't help but be nervous after the last two pregnancies we had. This ultrasound had not gone well in either of those. I decided I was going to stop and get myself something to eat for lunch beforehand and Devan asked if I should be eating before the ultrasound. I told him I didn't think it mattered considering it was a transvaginal ultrasound but that got me all paranoid and decided on a corn dog as a snack. I was called into the exam room by the same ultrasound technician who had helped diagnose both miscarriages... She remembered me and asked me how I was doing. I told her I was nervous and she was very positive. S...

Let me start this by saying to all of you women who have dealt with morning sickness or Hypermesis Gravidarum, I applaud you for making it through it. Holy cow. When I was pregnant with Reilly, I did have some on and off nausea but mostly I suffered for debilitating migraines. I always said I'd rather deal with nausea than migraines. That still might be true though I'm not too sure now. Yesterday, I hit 6 weeks of pregnancy and celebrated with a bang. I invited my toilet, a trash can, and all the food I'd eaten at the Super Bowl party the night before and we just had a blast. Yes... For the first time, I threw up while being pregnant... Not only did I do it once... No, I did it FIVE times. All within a span of 2.5 hours. I was completely worthless the rest of the day. I was so nauseous and weak that I couldn't do anything. I was literally confined to the couch all day. At the advice of some of my friends who've dealt with bad morning sickness in the past, I swallowe...

There comes a time in your life where you go to bed at 7:30PM every night... That's me... At the ripe old age of 27. I have never been so tired in my entire life. That includes my pregnancy with my son and the two miscarriages last year. For those of you that don't know me, I'm a pretty energetic person so to barely make it out of bed every day after 10+ hours of sleep is such a strange thing. I've also been blessed with early morning sickness and heartburn. I didn't get morning sickness with Reilly until probably 7 weeks. I didn't get heartburn until closer to my second trimester. To be getting both of these things before I'm even 6 weeks is blowing my mind. I sometimes have a feeling I'm carrying twins but I'm probably crazy. I keep getting that inkling though... Maybe it's wishful thinking. I've always wanted twins. I was a twin and never got to experience that twin bond because my twin was miscarried. I've always wanted to see that bo...

It's been awhile since I posted on here but today I felt the urge to write. I started an email for my almost-two year old son a few weeks before his first birthday. I was reading through the emails I sent him and came across two emails telling him he was going to be a big brother and two emails telling him we'd lost both babies. It's a weird feeling going back to those moments. They feel so long ago even though they really weren't. We were lucky to find out we were pregnant again last week on Martin Luther King Jr. Day. As weird as it sounds, it is perfect. We found out on a day that was dedicated to a man who had a dream. Granted, his dream was a little different than mine but the sentiment is the same. We are also due the month of Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness which is pretty special. What is strange is you'd think I'd be terrified! While I am scared I've also realized that stressing over everything isn't going to help anything. I'm just goin...