7 isn't so lucky.
Today is CD 1 of my 8th TTC cycle. Bummer, right? I'm going to be blatantly honest here. TTC sucks. I never thought it would be this hard. It's not just the emotional aspect failing over and over again. It's the constant advice you get from people who think they're giving you brand new never before heard of advice. Well guess what... I've heard it all. Here are the most common pieces of advice you get:
*Just relax.
*You're trying to hard.
*You're stressing out too much.
*It'll happen when the time is right.
*Try OPKs.
*Have sex on CDX, CDX, and CDX.
*Have sex every other day/have sex every day.
*Just have fun!
*Stop taking it so seriously.
I am so sick and tired of hearing these pieces of advice over and over. Every time I hear one, I just smile and thank the person because they honestly think they're helping and I appreciate that. If you've ever been through TTC and it's been difficult you know what I'm talking about. It's our human nature to give advice and if someone had advice that truly would help I'd be so happy, but truth be told, no advice can help you when you're trying to conceive. It's an emotional time that makes you question everything in life many times.
*How can people get accidentally pregnant, but people who genuinely want to get pregnant can't?
I wonder this all the time. I have a wonderful sister who is lucky enough to have an amazing and beautiful 14 month old son. He wasn't planned, but I am so thankful he was brought into our lives. Sometimes I catch myself holding that against her and that's not fair. It just seems unfair in this world that happened so easily for her and she wasn't even trying for it. There are so many cases like that and it causes me to think that maybe I'm doing this all wrong. Maybe I should be drinking caffeine all the time. Maybe I should be drinking with my friends when we go out. Maybe I shouldn't be charting my cervical mucus, my basal body temperature, OPKs, and my ovulation. Maybe I should just go with the flow. What would happen if I threw everything to the wind and just said screw it? I may do that this cycle just because I feel like I need a break from it all. Every month brings a new symptom that I haven't had before that gives me hope that maybe, just maybe we finally did it. The best part of my cycle is when I take my OPKs and I see what two lines are supposed to look like. But, then I wonder if I'll ever see two line's on the test I so desperately want to see those two glorious lines on.
I realize this is a negative post but I just want to be honest with anyone who reads this. TTC is a roller coaster. It puts you through every single emotion possible. Fear, anger, hope, denial, happiness, impatience, patience. It's a constant waiting game. First you wait for AF to disappear. Then, you wait to ovulate, then once you ovulate you're again waiting for symptoms, then either AF or a BFP to appear. Every time AF shows her ugly face it's like a stab in the heart... Or the uterus depending on how bad those blasted cramps are.
I guess I'll end this post with something positive. I know that some day I will have a child of my own. I'm not sure how we'll get there, but I know whatever path we take it will make for an amazing story. How amazing will it be to tell my child that we wanted you so badly we took every path we took, even if it led us somewhere we didn't expect. My child will be born to so much love because we wanted them so badly.
So, here we go again. Off to the races. They say 7 is a lucky number... Well, I say 8 is even more great.
*Just relax.
*You're trying to hard.
*You're stressing out too much.
*It'll happen when the time is right.
*Try OPKs.
*Have sex on CDX, CDX, and CDX.
*Have sex every other day/have sex every day.
*Just have fun!
*Stop taking it so seriously.
I am so sick and tired of hearing these pieces of advice over and over. Every time I hear one, I just smile and thank the person because they honestly think they're helping and I appreciate that. If you've ever been through TTC and it's been difficult you know what I'm talking about. It's our human nature to give advice and if someone had advice that truly would help I'd be so happy, but truth be told, no advice can help you when you're trying to conceive. It's an emotional time that makes you question everything in life many times.
*How can people get accidentally pregnant, but people who genuinely want to get pregnant can't?
I wonder this all the time. I have a wonderful sister who is lucky enough to have an amazing and beautiful 14 month old son. He wasn't planned, but I am so thankful he was brought into our lives. Sometimes I catch myself holding that against her and that's not fair. It just seems unfair in this world that happened so easily for her and she wasn't even trying for it. There are so many cases like that and it causes me to think that maybe I'm doing this all wrong. Maybe I should be drinking caffeine all the time. Maybe I should be drinking with my friends when we go out. Maybe I shouldn't be charting my cervical mucus, my basal body temperature, OPKs, and my ovulation. Maybe I should just go with the flow. What would happen if I threw everything to the wind and just said screw it? I may do that this cycle just because I feel like I need a break from it all. Every month brings a new symptom that I haven't had before that gives me hope that maybe, just maybe we finally did it. The best part of my cycle is when I take my OPKs and I see what two lines are supposed to look like. But, then I wonder if I'll ever see two line's on the test I so desperately want to see those two glorious lines on.
I realize this is a negative post but I just want to be honest with anyone who reads this. TTC is a roller coaster. It puts you through every single emotion possible. Fear, anger, hope, denial, happiness, impatience, patience. It's a constant waiting game. First you wait for AF to disappear. Then, you wait to ovulate, then once you ovulate you're again waiting for symptoms, then either AF or a BFP to appear. Every time AF shows her ugly face it's like a stab in the heart... Or the uterus depending on how bad those blasted cramps are.
I guess I'll end this post with something positive. I know that some day I will have a child of my own. I'm not sure how we'll get there, but I know whatever path we take it will make for an amazing story. How amazing will it be to tell my child that we wanted you so badly we took every path we took, even if it led us somewhere we didn't expect. My child will be born to so much love because we wanted them so badly.
So, here we go again. Off to the races. They say 7 is a lucky number... Well, I say 8 is even more great.
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